Stephanie
September 18th '05, 12:29 PM
Who here is or knows someone who is depressed or has been depressed before? And what was the reason for it?
I for one used to be depressed. I was depressed all through year 7, 8, 9 and then I moved schools this year and slowly but eventually was cured of it!! I have a family history of it so I was likely to get it anyway. My mother had pre-natal depression and my brother had pretty serious depression in his late teens and I wouldn't be surprised if my other brother had it and if my dad has it. My auntie and her son (my cousin) are also depressed.
The reason for my depression was because I was getting really badly bullied in year 7 by this stupid bitch who spread all these awful false rumours about me and telling people that I said awful things about them so that nobody would like me and want to talk to me and she also made an email address that looked very similar to mine and sent all these dreadful emails to herself and showed heaps of people so that everyone would think that I was an awful person. So to cut a long story short, she ruined my life, nobody would talk to me...it was awful. In primary school I used to be really loud and outgoing and I was all into drama and acting and being on stage and the centre of attention but then when I went to high school and got bullied by this mega bitch I suddenly became quiet, shy, withdrawed from everyone and had absolutely no self esteem! I even quit drama which was like a stab in the heart because as a young girl I always dreamed about being an actress and being on TV and all that and then in one year my life suddenly felt like it wasn't worth living and that I would never achieve my life goals.
I also took a lot of risks because I didn't feel life was worth it at all anymore. I was completely careless on roads. I would just cross without even looking hoping that a car would be driving at that moment. I almost got hit numerous amount of times but the driver who almost hit me would always slam on the breaks just in time and shout swear words at me (which I now understand was totally understandable…but at the time I didn’t think so)…and my parents would always scream at me for being so careless.
Anyway, soon enough my homeroom teacher sent me to the counselor because it was obvious I was depressed. I seriously never smiled at that stage. But the counselor turned out to be a total idiot. She didn’t help me in the slightest. She just made things a whole lot worse for me. She called in the bully and me and sat us together to talk about it and the bully just pretended to cry and cry and said that I was the one bullying her and all this other rubbish so the counselor comforted her and told me that I was obviously the bully and this bitch was the victim. And then when we got out of the counseling session, the bully told EVERYONE that I was such a baby that I even dobbed on her to the teachers!!! Which of course made my life even more miserable!!
Luckily, by year 8 I was cleared from almost all of her rumours and found myself a new group of friends. They weren’t overly nice to me but at this point I was just glad to have friends. I was still depressed and still constantly thought of suicide. Year 9 came and I realized that these girls were definitely not treating me right but I felt that I should just be grateful because it didn’t matter where I would go I would be treated the same. And I even began to feel that the constant thoughts of suicide were normal!! By the end of year 9, my brother demanded I move schools because he thought I was turning into a private school snob…so I moved to a public school this year and made the GREATEST friends I have ever made in my whole entire life and have never been more happy in my whole entire life!!! I am just so happy these days and when I think back to the days when I almost got hit by cars, I’m glad that God has given me another chance and saved me from those cars because today I am sooo glad to still be alive!!
I for one used to be depressed. I was depressed all through year 7, 8, 9 and then I moved schools this year and slowly but eventually was cured of it!! I have a family history of it so I was likely to get it anyway. My mother had pre-natal depression and my brother had pretty serious depression in his late teens and I wouldn't be surprised if my other brother had it and if my dad has it. My auntie and her son (my cousin) are also depressed.
The reason for my depression was because I was getting really badly bullied in year 7 by this stupid bitch who spread all these awful false rumours about me and telling people that I said awful things about them so that nobody would like me and want to talk to me and she also made an email address that looked very similar to mine and sent all these dreadful emails to herself and showed heaps of people so that everyone would think that I was an awful person. So to cut a long story short, she ruined my life, nobody would talk to me...it was awful. In primary school I used to be really loud and outgoing and I was all into drama and acting and being on stage and the centre of attention but then when I went to high school and got bullied by this mega bitch I suddenly became quiet, shy, withdrawed from everyone and had absolutely no self esteem! I even quit drama which was like a stab in the heart because as a young girl I always dreamed about being an actress and being on TV and all that and then in one year my life suddenly felt like it wasn't worth living and that I would never achieve my life goals.
I also took a lot of risks because I didn't feel life was worth it at all anymore. I was completely careless on roads. I would just cross without even looking hoping that a car would be driving at that moment. I almost got hit numerous amount of times but the driver who almost hit me would always slam on the breaks just in time and shout swear words at me (which I now understand was totally understandable…but at the time I didn’t think so)…and my parents would always scream at me for being so careless.
Anyway, soon enough my homeroom teacher sent me to the counselor because it was obvious I was depressed. I seriously never smiled at that stage. But the counselor turned out to be a total idiot. She didn’t help me in the slightest. She just made things a whole lot worse for me. She called in the bully and me and sat us together to talk about it and the bully just pretended to cry and cry and said that I was the one bullying her and all this other rubbish so the counselor comforted her and told me that I was obviously the bully and this bitch was the victim. And then when we got out of the counseling session, the bully told EVERYONE that I was such a baby that I even dobbed on her to the teachers!!! Which of course made my life even more miserable!!
Luckily, by year 8 I was cleared from almost all of her rumours and found myself a new group of friends. They weren’t overly nice to me but at this point I was just glad to have friends. I was still depressed and still constantly thought of suicide. Year 9 came and I realized that these girls were definitely not treating me right but I felt that I should just be grateful because it didn’t matter where I would go I would be treated the same. And I even began to feel that the constant thoughts of suicide were normal!! By the end of year 9, my brother demanded I move schools because he thought I was turning into a private school snob…so I moved to a public school this year and made the GREATEST friends I have ever made in my whole entire life and have never been more happy in my whole entire life!!! I am just so happy these days and when I think back to the days when I almost got hit by cars, I’m glad that God has given me another chance and saved me from those cars because today I am sooo glad to still be alive!!